Tuesday, 15 July 2008

  • Moving to Blogger

    On another note, I've also decided to finally make the move to my other blog. Sorry Xanga, you have been a true and faithful blog, but it's too much work to post on two blogs. On blogger I can log in with my gmail, and you know how much I love and use google. It's just easier.

    I'll be posting mainly on this blog from now on: http://www.stellarellar.blogspot.com
  • What have I been up to?

    Sorry it's been a while. I recently returned from an STM to Osaka, Japan where I served at Hamadera Bible Church doing college evangelism. It was such a blessed opportunity to serve and I am thankful for the opportunities that the Lord gave our team to share the gospel in a country that is so materially prosperous yet spiritually bankrupt. I really miss the people at Hamadera Bible Church...after two summers of serving there they have become family to me. It is amazing to see the unity that we have in Christ even though we speak different languages and come from entirely different cultures. I hope to be able to serve with them again next summer, but who knows God's plans for me after graduation. I love HBC because the men and women there serve so faithfully and shine brightly for Christ in a place with so little light. Thanks be to God for the chance that I had to serve alongside them.

    Click here for updates: http://estellastm.blogspot.com
    And here for pictures: http://picasaweb.google.com/stellarella87/JapanSTM2008


Monday, 05 May 2008

  • Jonathan Edwards says of the humility and majesty of Christ:


    "He is indeed possessed of infinite majesty, to inspire us with reverence an adoration; yet that majesty need not terrify us, for we behold it blended with humility, meekness, and sweet condescension. We may feel the most profound reverence and self-abasement, and yet our hearts be drawn forth sweetly and powerfully into an intimacy the most free, confidential, and delightful. The dread, so naturally inspired by his greatness, is dispelled by the contemplation of his gentleness and humility; while the familiarity, which might otherwise arise from this view of the loveliness of his character merely, is ever prevented by the consciousness of his infinite majesty and glory; and the sight of all his perfections united fills us with sweet surprise and humble confidence, with reverential love and delightful adoration." ~Jonathan Edwards

Tuesday, 29 April 2008

  • Seeking Silence

    John MacArthur is doing an evening service series on true worship. I dug up this quote and thought it was very appropriate in focusing my worship.

    “To worship God ‘in spirit and in truth’ is first and foremost a way of saying that we must worship God by means of Christ. In him the reality has dawned and the shadows are being swept away (Hebrews 8:13). Christian worship is new covenant worship; it is gospel-inspired worship; it is Christ-centered worship; it is cross-focused worship.” - D.A. Carson

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    To fuel my worship means I need time to meditate on His Word. What keeps me from that? The same things that Jim Elliott talks about:

    "'And the work of righteousness shall be peace, and the effect of righteousness quietness and assurance forever.' 'In quietness and in confidence shall be your strength.' I think the devil has made it his business to monopolize on three elements: noise, hurry, crowds. If he can keep us hearing radios, gossip, conversations, or even sermons, he is happy. But he will not allow quietness. For he believes Isaiah where we do not. Satan is quite aware of the power of silence. The voice of God, though persistent, is soft...I am finding your counsel to get enough sleep most practical Mother. Not only to be fit for the day and able to relax, but for spiritual awareness and reception one must simply be rested if he is to be blessed. Let us resist the devil in this by avoiding noise as often as we can, purposefully seeking to spend time alone, facing ourselves in the Word...Satan is aware of where we find our strength. May he not rob us!" ~Jim Elliott
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    So...what's my game plan? Adopting something I read from CJ Mahaney in small group...I formulated a personal "game plan" to fight off that which would seek to distract me from my time in His word and get the quietness I need to be before my Lord.

    10 Tools for Meditating on God's Word:
    1. Block out - remove distractions (noise, hurry, crowds, tiredness)
    2. Carve out - a time and place
    3. Prepare heart - pray, worship, refocus
    4. Engage mind - slow down, tune in
    5. Plan a study - pick a passage; be purposeful
    6. Take small bites - chew and digest what you read; quality over quantity
    7. Take the scenic route - drink deeply the Word; dig for hidden treasure; summarize the main point
    8. Apply to life - specifically and personally
    9. Journal
    10. Rinse. Repeat.

Thursday, 24 April 2008

  • To Know God

    Here is an excerpt from my discussion of Chapter 4 of The Pursuit of God by AW Tozer if anyone is curious about the book. Below is a summary of the chapter, and my thoughts on the chapter can be found on my Spiritual Digestion page. If you are not familiar, I started an ongoing book project, an extended book review of sorts of Christian books that I find to be especially encouraging to my own soul. Don't expect much...I don't get to write out my thoughts on things I'm reading nearly as much as I'd like to, but I'm trying!


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    Chapter 04 - Apprehending God

    In this chapter Tozer talks about an average man’s belief in God. He purports that to most, God is an inference, not a reality. The presence of God is reduced to things like hearsay, a deduction, an ideal, but He remains personally unknown to the individual. Tozer admits that for millions of proclaimed Christians, God is no more real to them than to the unbeliever and have merely attached themselves to an ideal or principle to live by.

    Scripture teaches that God is a God that can be known with as much immediacy and intimacy as any other person or experience. Psalm 34:8 cries out, “O taste and see that the Lord is good.” Matthew 5:8 states, “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” In order to be able to know God a saving work must first take place, for the unregenerate man is dead in sin, with no ability to respond to or rightly understand His Creator. So as children, of God, once regenerated we have the ability to know God, but Tozer asks of “the very ransomed children of God themselves: why do they know so little of that habitual conscious communion with God which the Scriptures seem to offer? The answer is our chronic unbelief. Faith enables our spiritual sense to function. Where faith is defective the result will be inward insensibility and numbness toward spiritual things. This is the condition of vast numbers of Christians today” (49-50).

    Tozer discusses two key words: reality and reckon. Reality speaks to the fact that God has objective and independent existence apart from whatever notions man may have about Him. The worshipping heart “finds Him here when it wakes from its moral slumber in the morning of its regeneration” (53). The word reckon refers not to imagination to that which seeks to attach to reality unreal images projected from the mind. Faith is not like that because it does not create anything, it only recognizes that all along God was there and is a very firm and unchanging reality. He that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.' (Hebr 11:6)

    I can’t say it better than Tozer: “As we begin to focus upon God the things of the spirit will take shape before our inner eyes. Obedience to the word of Christ will bring an inward revelation of the Godhead (John 14:21-23). It will give acute perception enabling us to see God even as is promised to the pure in heart. A new God-consciousness will seize upon us and we shall begin to taste and hear and inwardly feel the God who is our life and our all. There will be seen the constant shining of the light that lighteth every man that cometh into the world. (John 1:9) More and more, as our faculties grow sharper and more sure, God will become to us the great All, and His Presence the glory and wonder of our lives” (56).

Wednesday, 23 April 2008

  • what...a rice shortage??

    My aptmate told me today that there is a world rice shortage going on. My first thought was, "Rice? No way!"

    Rice Shortage Threatens Asia

    The Chinese in me panics a little bit. Rice is what our Chinese predecessors survived on because they were too poor to eat more meat! But really, in the U.S., the worst it means for me personally is that our apartment will have to split a little bit more for our 50 lb. bag of rice. But what about the poorer communities in countries like the Phillipines where wages are $2 a day and now they can hardly afford rice to eat? Aiyah...this is a bit troubling. Hmm...this distantly reminds me of what I read in Deuteronomy today:

    "And you shall remember the whole way that the LORD your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that he might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep his commandments or not. And he humbled you and let you hunger and fed you with manna, which you did not know, nor did your fathers know, that he might make you know that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD." Deut. 8:2-3

    It's so different for me than for many other individuals across the globe trying to make ends meet. I have never lived without a refrigerator stocked with food. I've never gone a day where I wondered if I would eat. I've never known the weakness of hunger - real, true gnawing hunger. Even still, I hope that I would remember to be thankful and acknowledge that it is the Lord that has faithfully provided for and sustained me with everything that I need to live for Him.

Sunday, 20 April 2008

  • sincerity

    With blogging, you never know how much of truth of a person is refelcted in what they say. When I post, how do you know if this is my truest side? You don't...

    So it is when I set out to examine myself. When I attempt to examine my own heart, am I getting an accurate picture of myself and my own sin as God sees it, or only as much as my own self-righteousness will allow? I readily confess that I am imperfect, but do I realize that I am the worst of all sinners? This is serious business, and I dare not trust myself and the deceitfulness of my own heart and flesh to give me a sincere picture of myself. In a way I can never fully trust any other person to look at my life and see me accurately, because iltimately there is no way you can know the depths of my heart. Sometimes I sit and think about how easy for my pride to trick me into complacency and it scares me to the core of my being.

    This is a scary thing. Solution: Pray. Read. Trust. Pray more. (Rinse, repeat.)

    I must remember that God knows all my thoughts and motives even when I don't. I echo Paul in 1 Corinthians 4 in saying that I cannot examine myself but it is the Lord who examines me. I can pray confidently and trust in Him for discernment knowing that God will show me my heart by using His Word to point me to Truth and the Spirit to convict and change my deceitful and prideful heart. I need to pray hard for the grace I need to staunchly refuse to coddle my sin. I need to pray for wisdom to not beat around the bush, but to get right to the issue of my heart.

    "“Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”" - Matthew 26:41

    My spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak. Truly.

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

  • Christ my one sufficiency

    Striving to live up to this...

    Thou art my good in times of peace,

    my only support in days of trouble,
    my one sufficiency when life shall end.
    Help me to see how good thy will is in all,
    and even when it crosses mine
    teach me to be pleased with it.
    Grant me to feel thee in fire, and food and every providence,
    and to see that thy many gifts and creatures
    are but thy hands and fingers taking hold of me.

    From "The All-good", Valley of Vision

Friday, 11 April 2008

  • Late night santification

    It's easy to love self over others. I'm experiencing that tonight...right now. If something is not sin, and my conscience is totally clear about it, but another brother or sister in Christ doesn't have the same clarity of understanding and it causes them to stumble...then should I continue on? Scripture says no. So I say no.

    My brain is screaming "legalism!!!!!!!!" to me right now. But it isn't...not if I have in mind to hold the interest of others before my own. And if this causes my brother or sister to stumble, ok, fine. It's not worth it then. As I type this I'm fighting the battle of exalting my own self-opinion and self-righteousness...but Scripture truth serves to remind me in humility to consider my fellow brothers and sisters first. This is a matter of loving others more than self. Time to go pray...

    "Therefore let us not judge one another anymore, but rather determine this—not to put an obstacle or a stumbling block in a brother’s way. I know and am convinced in the Lord Jesus that nothing is unclean in itself; but to him who thinks anything to be unclean, to him it is unclean. For if because of food your brother is hurt, you are no longer walking according to love. Do not destroy with your food him for whom Christ died. Therefore do not let what is for you a good thing be spoken of as evil; for the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. For he who in this way serves Christ is acceptable to God and approved by men. So then we pursue the things which make for peace and the building up of one another...Now we who are strong ought to bear the weaknesses of those without strength and not just please ourselves. Each of us is to please his neighbor for his good, to his edification." - Romans 14:13-19; 15:1-2

     P.S. This issue has nothing to do with food or alcohol. =)


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  • "But do not let this one fact escape your notice, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years like one day. The Lord is not slow about His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing for any to perish but for all to come to repentance. But the day of the Lord will come like a thief, in which the heavens will pass away with a roar and the elements will be destroyed with intense heat, and the earth and its works will be burned up. Since all these things are to be destroyed in this way, what sort of people ought you to be in holy conduct and godliness, looking for and hastening the coming of the day of God..." ~2 Peter 3:8-11

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